i don't understand

for a second i am leaving the story i was telling you. I am going to let you in to my life right now, this hell i am going through. he did something wonderful, something that i am so proud of him for doing. he turned his papers in for his mission and he leaves in less then three months. it is a living hell. don't get me wrong, i know with all my heart and all my faith that he needs to go on a mission, he is going to bring so many people to God's church and the experience is one that he needs for his own testimony, i am NOT going to stop him from going, i am not going to make him feel bad about it. i put on a strong face and act like nothing is wrong, but in reality everything is wrong. i have cried myself to sleep for the last two weeks and everytime i leave after being with him; i die inside.

i don't understand how this can be part of God's plan!

i am not going to say that i planned on graduating from school, getting married to him and living happily every after. because i don't want to get married for a long time and who knows where life will take us once we leave this bubble, but why does God bring people into our lives... just to take them away? how can He let us be so happy and then take it away in the very same breath! i have been praying like never before, my scriptures have been read more in these last couple of months then ever before and i have gone to the temple searching for answers... and i have got NOTHING!

please help me!